I wish I could fix you.

Video Proposal

　
　
My first video work I want to create deals with themes of anxiousness, and waiting with a sense of indefiniteness. I want to have shots of all the physical manifestations of anxiousness and edit them all together, so they weave in and out. Things like wringing hands, pacing, rocking back and forth, fidgetting, looking at a clock that isn’t there, knitting. I want the video to also have a medical feel to it. I don’t want to over do it, rather imply it allegorically with a hanging sheet that could be a curtain in a medical facility.

I will need a tri pod or stacks of objects to put my camera on. I will need something that I can use as a curtain, probably in a hallway type space and have an awful generic chair to interact with. I think this will be a silent film, and I want to be dressed plainly. I was thinking of stark, plain light, nothing over dramatic or interesting.

I was considering using paint in the work, I think I have decided against it. I was considering having an ambiguous person paint the shape of lungs on my shirt at one point. I would make the film so it would convey that this is in the middle of the waiting process not the end. Having a diagnosis, just means more waiting. I was thinking paint, I feel that making lungs with my nervous gestures would work better? Or if I was given a pair that I try to fix? I worry that this is too specific and may take away from the strict anxiousness I want to convey. The root of the anxiousness is medical, do I need to include this? I really think if I could find a way to incorporate making a pair of lungs this is what I want to do. I will crochet them, and I have yarn and hooks, so I won’t need any more supplies. I could have overlapping frames of my making something and pacing or other anxious gestures. I would have the yarn be the only serious colour in the film.